Watching Jonah Hill’s character in 22 Jump Street really struck a chord with me because that’s how I felt when you went to college. And it was awful. Now that I’m less than 24 hours from leaving, I realize I should have been more empathetic towards you and the huge change you were going through. I’m sorry for not.
But you also never told me. You’ve shut me out of almost everything about you, so don’t get mad at me for expecting you to be like you were. You never gave me the chance to grow with you and to see you become who you are.
And lastly, screw you. I may have said and done some pretty bad things, but I was always, 100%, unconditionally there for you. Where the hell were you? At another dinner party? Be as righteous as you want, but that is the one thing that you can never even pretend to have over me.
I miss you, and I don’t want to go, but I don’t need another day to show me that you have no place in your life for me anymore. And being as today is your birthday, and you’re with your real friends…
I don’t like to be a matter or convenience.
I’m about to start college and the only way I can think to express my feelings right now is a stupid emoticon. But whatever.